i've been happy with my life and im so thankful for everyone. but today seriously made my feel like bullshit. so much drama is running through and my love life is starting to affect on me. i consider myself independent, why? i've been heartbroken, played, rejected. when i finally find the perfect guy who makes me smile again, i fucking hate myself for losing you. i act like i dont give a shit; i seriously do. i feel like i lost a muscle in my heart, heartbroken. im never this emotional, i want to be happy. but the world always find a way to fuck around with my heart. i admit, i've been eating. eating doesnt really make me think. ugh, i really dont know how to control myself. maybe its not worth this long to wait or fucking try this hard and then i see you fuck around with other girls. but this isnt my first time waiting so long, my first relationship took me fucking 2 years until i had shawn. he treated me so well. even though it wasnt long, im at least glad he gave me a chance and made me happy as ever. x 3 but its not really about him. its over between us twoo. i've fallen for another person. but its hurting me becuase you dont ever treat me the same. so if your not trying, what makes you think i have the point of trying? i even give you hints, anything to show that i really had something for you. i keep dangling at your tail. yes, at first i didnt have any emotions where we first started but now this hurts like a bitch. i dont know how long i can wait or try anymore. even if theres no opportunity to be with you; thank you.
jay sean - lights off . < / 3 /:
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