UfeelingMe?

why hello citizens ! sorry i havent blog for a while! but theres so much shit that happen i dont even know if i should blog this shit up, so i wont. so lately , i havent really gone to school. sorry family but school is just so stressful. i can really thank my sister for listening to al my cutting stories & keeping it cool. so i have a lot of homework to make up & i really cant find the time. everyday is like a rush. i cant find my way back out unless i cheat. & how im solving shit is by cutting school. and i cant believe it but im passing ! yes i know my grades went a bit down ever since middle school, but im just happy that im passing school. in pyhsics , im passing with actually a 65 ! im deff not satified with this score, but at least im not gonna take it again NEXT year. (:

wanna know whats more interesting ? meee ♥ life.
so im now single & deff not looking,searching,hunting for a guy. im just not hungry for anyone or dont have the time to find one. im done for now, i need a break. If any guys is trying to get at me, yeah goodluck. im not that easy to get. i've gave up giving chances or relationships. Liz believes im peer pressuring myself to not like anyone, but why would i want to get myself in a relationship then end up hurting myself again. no no no not happening. i dont want to become obsessed or whateverrrr. im not saying that ima say no straightup but you just gotta earn it. i rather just be chilled with everyone so nothing can be awkarddd. you feeling me? haha lmao.

okay,peaceout,toodles, heading to do homework. :]

Paradee

So what is up with my lifeee ? its not the greatest, but its finee. today was the last celebration for chinese new year. i was squish at first but i ended up watching the whole parade. i saw many nice shit like some mexicans dancing, and some nice lion dancing. yes i saw you HC. (: first i was suppose to have chinese school in the morning, but fuck that! i didnt go. hahas. i went to karens home then went to pick up my sister afterwards. holyshit chinatown was pack. i swear, we gotta fucking kick those black and white people becuase its CHINESENEWYEAR. get your own damn new year. get fucking negronewyear or blankanewyear. i was just kidding guys, dont take it so seriouslyyy. but it was so pack i was about to slice everyone to move out my fucking wayy. and when i went to eat with amy & helen & people, outside everyone was catching the parachute red thingy! i was trying to get one to but like i look stupid ! im like the only shorty tryna catch so is everbody. but amy and some other people caught some. nice jobbbb. after they ate, i decided to go to duaneread and get condition. i took a while becuase i had no bag, & i didnt want to pay for it. finally i got it becuase i put that shit in my boobieess. then after i got my conditioner, i was walking home. THEN i stopped myself becuase i saw liz & stephaniee at grand court. so we chill till around nine somethingg. Oliver was fucking hilarious, playing his petville & pet society. hahas feeecking loser here ! and the funny shit was we was about to go to olivers roof top when we saw a BUM. this nigga was so mean to the bum! he was like "i'll give you 5 second or ima call the cops" in chinese. the bum was like yeah whatever okay wait. then oliver goes like " 1 ... 2 .... 345 !" ROFL some mean shit he is. so we just went to stephanie places for a whileee. after that, stephanie wanted to go home and i guess i had to leave too. but theres always something that stops upp. oliver goes like, lets drinkkk. no problem withhh mee ! hes was nice enough to treat us too ! (: he got me a heineken and he bought everyone else a drinkk too. first i was like , what happens if mommy smells me & notice i was drinking beer. BUT WHATEVER, i drank it anyways. its not my first time. so then while drinking and walking, all of a sudden we decided to go to my rooftop, oliver left though :[ but its always a nice view, mostly when its nighttime. LIZ over is was fuckign crazy, she was sitting in the VERY tip of the roof. LOL but the funny shit was me tryna get gary too look down becuase this nigga is a PUSSYYYYY x 3 i fucking love to see his scared face. :D today i had some emotional swings but i was able to keep it in and just be happy. i didnt even fucking start my homework, & schools tomorrow. im gonna go finish it all now.

PEACEOUT,TOODLES !

SunriseDay(=

karen FINALLY put some pictures up from the morning :] she took some awesome shots of me & i think i took some nice pictures of her? i wasnt bullshitting at all, we actually sat an talked and wait for the sun to touch some point at the sky. these pictures will so make so many memories becuase FDR DRV will always be like anotehr seaport (: its cool and relaxing and its so worth walking. i also went home and sleep like the blog i said earlier, i slept till fucking TWO. stupid dimples aim / call me and told me to get my sorry butt outside. him and allen was already at THIRD floor at my building and i was flipping out becuase my mom was still home. dimples wanted to bomb my bathroom, NOT HAPPENINGGG. so i told to go all the way to the roof top. they didnt waited so long becuase after i was done eating, i went up. these faggot was spitting and throwing water on the streets! LOL and then allen decided to pee in the bottle and throw that shit on the streets. that was deadass disgusting. they wanted to wait for fungus but he took way to long. so dimples threw that shit to the streets and we ran off down the stairs we go. dimples go pee / tcum in his hand & he didnt even wash it. omgosh. it was funny too becuase dimples & allen was cracking jokes about thier grandma. how thier grandma was their wallpaper on their phone. LMFAO. but it was some young ass white chicks with big boobs. ther other thing that was funny was that dimples says he BEAUTIFIES everyone. LOL. he says hes the one who doesnt make us feel like shit. yeah okay loserr =) hahas. then we went down and we ate in a resturant , i believe the olympics resturant ? it was the one on delcaney across the american deli. i treated allen to ice cream and dimples was being a bitch and wasnt sharing his "spicyfries" so end up getting some for myself. i bought myself a sundae that was fucking 6$ ! i gave the bananas to allen and he made me drop one JUICY ASS banana. it was such a waste though becuase i didnt eat the vanilla part of the sundae becuase i didnt want it no more and NO ONE wanted to eat it. thats like fucking 1 dollar right there. lmao! fungus finally came and gosh all they talk about was maple. i was acting stupid acting like i knew that the hell they were saying. fungus keeps telling me to shut up. LMAO. bitchhhh !

picture taken by karenshizzle. x 3

then after we ate, i decided to go to chinatownn & find karen. AND WHO DID I SEEE ? stephanieee. (: she was with my neighboor, 2nd floor people. amazing! i finally cruise and know how second floor is like. after that, i walked stephanie to find her groupie. they told me to come but nah. thats just weird. & i dont want to see some certain people. i told myself, enough is enough. i wont follow no one anymore and i dont want to look like a fool outta myself. ima keep my words. so after dropping of stephanie, i headed to yaya and met up with karen & yin THEN went to holly and lily and went to grand to play handball. i swear, i suck at handball now. fucking winter has to ruin it. ]; but i promise, i just need some practice and i'll be the godly once again ! then went to gee'mas to eat dinner. i was way to tired ! so when i went home, i fell asleep and woke up around 10 something. yeah its not so great. but that was my day. not so baddd (;

kthanksbyetoodles.

Sunrise x 3

Me and my baby karen met up at 6:30 am and went to the FDR (: we actually wanted to wake our butts up & head to the FDR. first we were a bit late becuase annie over here took to long to get ready. lmfao! i can never go outside looking ugly becuase i am ugly. LOL jeekays. so while heading to the FDR, we talked a lot. karen was there to listen to my stories and helped me a lot. i fucking love you karen shi. i'll give everyone a chance, its not worth to lose any close friend over fucking guys. this wasnt the only situation that happened before. there were friends who left beucase they are so fucking obssessed. i dont get why we were such close friends , then you go ahead and act like bitch. you dont like me treated you like a bitch, so why do it in the first place. your not proving anything to anybody. i dont care now becuase you can hang onto your boytoy for all you want but we'll always be friends. yes i am able to forgive but i will remember what a bitch you guys are. and if we do chill, i dont want to chill with your couples, i dont wanna fucking look at you guys make out anymore. so if you were waiting for an answer, here it is.

after all this thinking and talking , me and karen went to walk around chinatown until now because i feel really tired. i woke up at 6:00 ! i dont ususally wake up at this time! i usually wake up at 11 or laterrr. and now its 11 something am and i told myself to go sleep. but i guess not, later? im gonna go back outside later anyways. the weathers not so bad, kinda good for handball. but cant becuase theres a bit snow on the ground. i miss handballl & basketball & volleyball ! i've been just a fatass and just been eating. aiyahh. o yeah while walking to chinatown i went to duaneread and stole this sexy ass lip balm for myself. its fucking CIRCULAR not a stickk ! the most beautifulest thing i've ever stolennn. so if you see me, im probably gonna showoff.

i feel tired again, i'll blog later. toodles.

ThanksDimples!

okay today , the 20th , im going to wake up and 6 am to meet up with karen at 6:30 am then head to the FDR ! wait for the sun to rise. aint we G? (: yes were losers for doing this but it helps us to just relax and be chilled. just 5 more hours to go. x3

i feel lesss stressful now becuase dimples over here is making me laugh. him and his concietedness, its so fucking hilariousss! but i cant thank him enough, he made my day. heres alittle conversation, so i can always remember the funny ass moments. this nigga got jokes .

annie: you were so cute when you were little!
dimples: stfu im not cute, im a gee star
annie : ROFLOLMAFAOMG.

this doofus showed me a picture of him when he was little. my god he was adorable. and i knew him since that little! now hes just some hurt ass fucker that looks liek a fool with his pants on the grounddd. hahas ! heres some more conversation ~

dimples : dpryde ALL DAY NIGGA
annie : ILLMILLIONNNNNNNNN
dimples : CRAZII
annie : ohh yes i cant disagee. OMG. ANNIEEEE
dimples : FUCK THEM NIGGA DAVID LIANG ALL DAYY
annie : LOL BITCH
dimples : EVERYDAY, THE ONE AND ONLY SEXY KIDD ALL DAY EVERYDAY
annie : ROFL OKAY OKAY.
dimples : FUCK
annie : OKAY YOU GOT IT
dimples : WORD!

YOUR SO FUCKING CONCIETED !!! thats why it makes me laugh, i've never seen a guy this obssessed with himself. you ish one funny ass person. he also send me some shit for me to laugh at if i was feeling crankyy. if you were to read this , THANKS SO MUCHHH for your stupid ass jokee.

some other shit that i laugh at ;

annie : why are you still smoking ? just throw it all out your window
dimples : i'll do it if you jump off the roof
annie : LMAO once you jump off the window with your cigs
dimples : NO PLEASE, ANYTHING BUT THE CIGS
annie : LOL OMG THROW YOURSELF OUT
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (:
dimples : waht team are you on?
annie : my school team ?
dimples : sport nigga
annie : basketball ?
dimples : HAHAHHA EWWWWWW
annie : lmao. shut up! not like you play
dimples : ew a chinese girl playing basketball. omg one word - HURT
annie : LOL another word - amazing
dimples : thanks i know i am
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ (:
Just recently ;
dimples : fuck i wanna shower but im scared
annie : WHAT !?
dimples : just watch
annie : scared ?!
dimples : the grudge, w/e you call it.
annie : HAHA YOU ONE DEADASS LOSER

PUSSYYYYYYY!

. . . . this reminds me of past history, only if you would be my classclown again.

Im Done.

F D R DRV x 3

its 6 something pm and just came home from the FDR. im freezing like a beetch. i walked around the FDR for 2 hours and like i said, i just wanna sit and think about whats happening. im happy i went to the FDR alone becuase i dont have to deal with any bullshit. i never knew the FDR can be so huge! but they have the most beautiful scenery ever. as i was walking i thought about. i'll stop trying, stop bother you. if your able to give me up and move on, i'll do the same. everythings just not right for us. your like a drug, and its hard to quit but at the end i will be myself again. i admit, this is stupid. im just a little girl. whatever, everyone has these feeling. i cried. even more stupid aint it? when i walked farther down to the FDR, there was a park. with swings ! nobody was there so i decided to go in and just sit in the swings. it was the most relaxed thing i ever felt. i sound like a loner right now but i wanted be alone so i dont give a fuck if your gonna think like that. im not gonna change my decision, everything is final. if everyone wants to be a bitch in my life, i'll be one too. im sick and tired of complaining bout how emotional i am. there were people who cared, thanks. but i bet they dont want to see me this way too. so as i said, thank you for everything. you just keep finding ways to hurt me. but im giving up, you'll just be like how we all started. a stranger. do i want this ? no. but i guess its the best for me to be myself again.

Dizzy-day26 .

im tired as hell. i finish running the fdr and came back home. /: i feel so cranky and im not talking so much today. i feel quiet today. thats really not a good thing becuase im not a quiet person. thats just fucking weird. too much is running through my head. im singing my heart out. dizzy-day26 is a really good song. whoever is reading this better go download it right now. i really dont know why im even home right now, everyone went to work out or whatever. i ran a fucking mile, maybe more than that and im BORED. i feel like going back to the fdr & just sit there because i dont got anything better to do. and if i can solve about all thise stress im going through, i'll be the same again. i wanted to go shopping today but i feel like i used to much money. chinese new year just past, and im using money like everyday. there would be at least a day where i would be deadass broke. being broke is so not a good feeling. -.- and i just bought myself a angus burger. holy shit aint it? right now i feel like crying, but i will not becuase im a woMAN. o fuck you stress & drama. peaceout.toodles.

Lifeeeeeeee .

all thes personal feelings is NOT for you guys to comment or judge about my life. i choose to put my feelings public becuase so you can know how i am as a person. since i just blogged about my love life issue, i bet you all like "lols wtf why would we care". i dont care. its just for me to blogg everything up so one day i'll come back to it and just laugh at it. okay no more stupid corny stuff.
my everyday life is so abnormal, i dont like to sleep nowadays. i sleep late, around 1 ? i just came back from a sleeepover and these niggas were keeping me awake till 5 in the morning. i thought i would be dead by morning but i was finee. rise and shine. but then the rest of the day pisses me the fuckk off. i went to chill my tompkins people. i could have chill with them earlier, but no. people hanging on to their boyfriends dick like theres no tomorrow. so i have to go take the train back myself. like who the fuck will think i would take the train alone, i barely EVER take the fucking train. i swore, if i got myself lost, they'll be the one fucking picking my ass up. enough about my bitching. yes i may take a joke and hold it in. but if you take advantage; GET THE FUCK OUT. -.- so ocne i went back to manhattan, went to cruise the lower east side. saw elizabeth & her boytoy. mad how she doesnt even call me that shes coming out. then i went to two boots and sat for HOURS. then went to jacks and learn this new card games. thanks to lilyyee ! it makes me feel SOOO fucking smart. rofls. (: uh, its 1:50 and im fucking blogging. i shall be out. toodles. fuckyouworld.

fuckhistory.

alright here it fuckin goes; ♥ ... )':

i've been happy with my life and im so thankful for everyone. but today seriously made my feel like bullshit. so much drama is running through and my love life is starting to affect on me. i consider myself independent, why? i've been heartbroken, played, rejected. when i finally find the perfect guy who makes me smile again, i fucking hate myself for losing you. i act like i dont give a shit; i seriously do. i feel like i lost a muscle in my heart, heartbroken. im never this emotional, i want to be happy. but the world always find a way to fuck around with my heart. i admit, i've been eating. eating doesnt really make me think. ugh, i really dont know how to control myself. maybe its not worth this long to wait or fucking try this hard and then i see you fuck around with other girls. but this isnt my first time waiting so long, my first relationship took me fucking 2 years until i had shawn. he treated me so well. even though it wasnt long, im at least glad he gave me a chance and made me happy as ever. x 3 but its not really about him. its over between us twoo. i've fallen for another person. but its hurting me becuase you dont ever treat me the same. so if your not trying, what makes you think i have the point of trying? i even give you hints, anything to show that i really had something for you. i keep dangling at your tail. yes, at first i didnt have any emotions where we first started but now this hurts like a bitch. i dont know how long i can wait or try anymore. even if theres no opportunity to be with you; thank you.

jay sean - lights off . < / 3 /: