Small Beautiful You

LMFAO. dont mind my face.
the birds claw was fucking SHARP.
bird names is lily :)
the most beautifulest bird evar.

When i put lily on my finger , i wanted to scream becuase its nail was so fucking long and sharp! But i man up and let it just be there. So i wa walkign around until i decided i want to see it fly. I looked at the bird and then flick my hand like a bitch. haha so mean. It flew all the back to its home , and it was pretty far. haha (:

Thanks

l0ve4lyfe
i get mad if that happens
cuz then i know i missed out
thats y i want to b awake as much as possible
cuz my friend was saying
back a few years ago
y sleep so much
do as much as u can
cuz u going to sleep forever when u die

omfg solo just like inspired me; i was talking to him about how i hate coming outside at three becuase i cant really do shit. so tomorrow , im waking early to do mad shit , and fuck shit up in handball. :] thank you solo, you the best. ima try to wake up as early as i can and come outside AND HAVE FUN WITH LIFE TILL THE VERY END.


thank you michael wu . thanks for listening. (:

you are so beautiful, wonderful.

arg , i havent blogged lately!

just days ago i came back from upstatee. :)
Just 2 days and it was okay. Most of time were on the freaking bus. But we went we to niagara falls. I saw many types of waterfalls. it was really pretty too, mostly at night time. The waterfall looks super beautiful and gorgeous! We went also under the waterfall. It was really fun :] Most when i got went , i felt like it was a amusement park ride! But overrall, fuck you busridee. & go check out the pictures ! its @ my sisters facebook album

Hmmm what else happened? ooo today. Went to eat with everyone! At lukes lobster. It was so much money, oh my lord. I bought simon his food too becuase all he have been ever doing was treat me. Now its my turn to be a sweetheart and owe him back. [: Dennis got his richlike lobster roll while me and jessica got crabroll. So freakin delicious. & michaelwu, simon and susan got shrimprolll. We basicually just ate the whole day today. omfg, so much pound gained. -.- Then met up with helen, amy, and jin later on. dada didnt look so happy :( it kinda scares me becuase i wanna know whats hes up tooo! So i hope you feel better for whatever your thinking bout. Then after a few minutes of walking around, then it was already time for dinner. MORE eating. ate at c&L with everyone. They gave us free hot and sour soup. so i heard you tight solomander (: i think i freakin love that place now! Simon hit me , spilled shit on me, and was being a jerk to me on aim today; but its okay becuase your number1. Just go have a great time @ collegeee :]

Let my perfume, Soak in in your sweater.

Im Ready for You - DrizzyDrake.

"R.I.P. to the girl you used to see;
Her days are over. Baby she’s over."

&& ... "Yeah I hear you talkin’, don’t know who you tryin’ to flatter."

I feel like these lyrics relate to me ;
Thats why i can sing this part for hours.

So lately, peoples been coming up to me talking bout one specific topic that i hate explaining the most. Now i think im sick of hearing it. But i can see why people talk about it though, I can't even think straight when people ask me. Things gonna work out,i'll just wait. argh.

This Pain

I chilled with thania , crystal , yeegee today. i was suppose to meet them earlier but i overslept , once again. :( sowwiee. So i met up with them at tompkins where they were sitting on the grass. We were just girl talking, laughing :) Then after hours or talking we went to crystals place to chill once again. It sucks becuase fluffy was not there and so was chippy. I LOVE PICKING ON THEM!#%^. o yeah while walking our way to crystals , we saw ismael . omfg , you fineeeee. LOL. i dont understand why i always ignore you but im glad i saw you today :) so after hugging him , someone was calling me. I was like wtf , where is itcoming from. Then i looked up and it was dimples! [; He was chilling in his friends place and amazingly it was just across from crystals place. It was good bumping into him too becuase i miss him even more! He was yelling my name outside the window; haha he looks like a monkey. :] so glad to see you guys today, ismael & dimpless♥.

when i was walking home i started to cramp badly. I couldnt walk and i starting to sweat. Then right at the point of going go seward , i was dizzy. I felt like i couldnt even look striaght so im like fuck it and try to make it my way to home. My legs starting to shake , i dont know what the hell is happening to my body. I tried to cool down by sitting in front of my door but i was about to fucking die. So i ran up the stairs and try to take a shit and cool down. But even if , i couldnt stop shaking. So i just got inside the tub and took a really cold shower. That didnt help also. So i try to go sleep. OMFG now , i thought i fucking died. I was yelling and screaming the pain away. I got my chinese yao and put on the 'bwak faw yao'. I rub my tummy hard and it fucking burns. i felt so weak , i couldnt even move. i even put a blanket over me so i can just sweat it off and not feel the pain. I slept till around 10 and i feel much better. This feeling was fucking arduous. im glad that everythings okay. But simon has a headache, so i hope you feel better soon too!

Talking Trash.

angry today; just so fucking stupid. okay start with this fucking nigger. you knows how to complain about the dumbest shit. So you now understand why we aint so close anymore? Cuase im tired of you fucking complaining. I give you what you want and you end up backing down. & at the end for you to say how the fuck i messed up and lost? Fuck outta my face. Yeah im gonna talk all the shit i want.

and this other bitchass acting like girl. I dont fucking understand but outta all the girls , you choose to only get mad at me. I see they being annoying and you dont ever tend to get mad. But when it comes to me , you fucking give me a whole other side of you. So you know what ? Fuck you. I dont care if you mad. You acting like a little bitch to me. I'll make you even more angry and i wont even care. So you go act like a little girl getting mad at me. Great ! i dont careee.

I finally told you. Sometime i really wish i can tell you face to face. So then i could see how you would handle it & would you really just drop the conversation like that. You sure handle it well , you still left me so regretful . Yeah , Thanks. Be glad i choose this road.

beggin`.

beggin - madcon.
really great song. heard it from step up 3d (:

- at grandmas place chilling with the liddo sophia and agnes. they so grown up now. :( they were dancing to the song nobody by wondergirls. sometimes i just wanna smack agnes across her bumbum; shes always saying how "ooo i wanna do what sophias does". like everything. & i ask her "why do you always want to follow what your bigger sister do?" shes like "becuase everything she do is more fun" . No agnes , you can have the same amount of fun. you need to learn bout having your own freedom & to enjoy it also. But hey your young , i though the same when i was younger. But when you grow up, you'll be like wtf was i saying. :)


you know what , fuck that

Liz is back (:

met up with elizabethtsang & chilled with her. (: We were waiting on 1 court for almost more than 2 hours. her fault ! we finally get to play but it was a four on. Liz just came back from china so the game wasnt so serious. we played against these backcourt people. speaking of backcourt , i went with elizabeth there later on. Everybody was fuckin smokin. ohdee. Meet alot of people & backcourt people aint that 'tuff&mean'. They kinddd. :)

Sleepover ! It was really fun. i was being such an annoying little bitch. Slept at 5 and had to wake up @ 8. So its about 3 hours of sleep? Went to seward and was really tireddd. I couldnt stop yawning but now im not tired at all.

Got Guts

boneless wild wings today. so freakin delicious. :) and im happy that i ate 4 blazin wings. That shit is god like. This time i got wild and hunneybbq. so fucking delicious. i got the guts to eat this spicy& im a girl sayyyyyy WHAAAA?!

went back to grand with alex first. stupid simon kept complaining how badly he gotta peepee. talking to alex is mad funny. he wonders how i will act when liquor hits me , ITS NOT CUTE AT ALL. & you promised me. (: hopefully you keep your words! because you know how much i will stress if i found out. Anything is possible. remember that alex !

Hanging out with elizabeth today. i miss you and love you so much (:

simons back !

i suck dick in handball right now. i hate being so rusty. /: i felt like i learned nothing when i know i goddammit didd! Yesterday i was playing with conroy & i just wanted to kill myself. I missed almost every shot and probably got conroy dumb tight. And today i was playing with solomon and its the same outcome. suckballs. now i dont know if i ever should take a break of handball. this is the outcome of it & its not fucking goood ! i want to remain a godly left . /:

Simons back! Im happy :) When i was walking to seward, i was just freakin anxious. Even tho i took a shit long hours to come outside. When i was actually in front of seward, i didnt see simon @ the handball courts. I was bout to cry , then when i was walking to the entrance. THERE WAS SIMON! i was being an immature little girl & kept on yelling his name ohdee loud. i couldnt shut up , i was able to see simon again! after these long 8 dayssss. he still the same old simon. :]

Went to pace quite early today. I thought there would be nothing to do. but i was wronggg. We were playing taps shiet. LMFAO i couldnt stop being a little bitch. i was being like another m.huang and was going nuts&angry. not tryna say anything mean michael. (: i was fucking sitting next to solo & simon and they were HARSH. they beam that shit on my and i get SO SCARED. but when i get 'angry' , I FUCK SHIT UP. HAHA ! it was really funny becuase it gets intense & people fuck each other by beaming that shit. Dennis was scaring the shit outta us becuase when he has the ball , he will choose someone and beam the shit outta them. LOL , sometimes we get lucky and beam that shit back right to him. :) my holy jeez , i was sweating balls. now this is a night i would die forr; just to have fun. jin drove us back home. michaelwu was kind enough to walk home becuase the car didnt fit enough people. james was being annoying; whatever. i dont want him to chill with us. i just want him to like just be a friend. not a friend to chill with everyday or some sort. it pisses me off.

thats not only that pisses me off;
but i got the guts to just forget.

Beauty Alert !

yesterday @ night we went to this church jin grew up in. It was fun :) Something to do rather than pace! It was a last min plan becuase all of a sudden people wanted pizza. & Jin was nice enough to let us chill inside the church. There was ping pong and foosball. I love foosball. When i was younger, i love the feeling of 'the goalie shot' . But i suck. i lost to jin and susan. i was fucking sweating balls and it was pretty humid inside thereee. I ate about 6 pizza and i was full alright. So full that i had the meanest stomach ache ever. ): And i was a bit stressing too. So both of those emotion mix together is not a good feeling ! But after i took a shower, then i started to cool off. One of the best night everrr (: - Ping pong was epic too. Watching everyone do thier godly spikes was hilarious. Michael Huang was deff funny beuase he was getting a bit happy and started to aim the ball everywhere, flying out and shitt ! I played later on when everyone was cooling off. I swear to god i was pwning buttholes; i was god. LOL

Hm , i went to do my hair today! I love it so so so so much. I dont want it to be ruin but i know it will soooon. right now its all staight and shit but later on its gonna look like a electric lion hair -_- not cutee. But i love the color of my hair. i want it to be brunette but its just darkbrown with some gray. yeah gray, becuase the motherfucking bleach ruined it. /: The cost was pretty pricy but i can say its worth it. :) i lOVE my hair and its gonna take a long time before i change it. Thanks to people who actually notice. Tells me how much you've been paying attention !

I don't know what to do lately, seward is not that fun and i dont know what else to do. I was thinking of volunteer but i dont want to go myself; & summer is almost over. I hope i do as much as i can before school starts and not regret a single moment.

Deeep into dreams

movies today . :) not bad. Inception was awesome. When they were dreaming again, i was so excited. i dont know why ! lols. i lost count of how many dreams they had in a row and i almost forgot wheather they were in reality or not! & the thing is that , it still makes me wonder if the end was a dream or not. I LOVE IT SO MUUCHHHH. i wish i can think deep into my dreams. That would be epicc. And it would be even cooler if all my friends were in the dream with me! UGH, WHY CANT THESE SHIT BE REAL ?! love inception alot.

then we moved on to step up 3d. Its not bad. The only part i like was when it was secondbattle. That was dopeee. (: They were swirling and puffing water out. Oh my fucking god. Moose ! Team Pirates! But i dont like it as much as the 1st@2nd step up. This one was just decent, if it was more epic like the 1st and 2nd then this shit would be jamming ! The ballroom dancing shit was cool too (: I wish one day i can do that, once im old and pretty !

Like 2 days ago, me and helen was on jins car. Jin went to go buy sweet potatoes fries and we were just waiting for him inside the car. I turned the music SO LOUD that i couldnt even har helen when she was talking. IT WAS SO FUNNY BECUASE SHE WAS YELLING AND SCREAMING so i can hear what the hell she is saying. And we had the AC on so we closed the window. We were talking at the top of our lungs while the music. its fucking loud as hell ! It was funny though becuase we were bout to break the mutherfucking glasss. Shit is to funny ! :)

Secretly Evil

i feel so messed up but seeing you all fustrated makes me wanna party. ;]
i dont know how i start to develop such evil side , but i like it .

So today i non stop walking back and forth to jacks to seward.
Seward was so hot and i didnt feel like doing anything.
i played like only 2 games ; one against florence and susan.
and one against stanley and ronjiejie ?! LMFAOO.
its nice to play with hollyy. its been awhileeee . :]

conroy treated to lunch ! oh my fucking gosh. i've been getting treated alot!
thats why i love you guys , (: you dont let me die in starvation !
Michael wus treating tomorrow , so fucking happpppyyy.
But theres a reason behind it , we gonna have some serious chitchat.

Chilled at pace after seward w/ conroy, solomon, susan, and michael . :]
Had a great time thanks to conroy. he was singing his gay celion dickqwiuyw song.
and i was singing my lungs outttt. HAHAHA x 3
He doesnt even try making me laugh , yet i still doo.
Conroy Cui is also someone i can talk to bout anything; like the wierdest shit ever.

ima try to blog everyother day. Ever since i made tumblr. i got lazy with blogspot. BUT ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN. IMA BLOG BOUT EVERYTHING POSSIBLE. PEACE TO THE MIDDLE EAST. !

August !

okay i woke up meeting up with michael becuase he said he was gonna buy me lunchh. :] well yes i was super happy! We went to gude gude and i ate a yum yum sandwichh. Everything was going great until i finish gudegude and retardly left my phoneeee -____- . WHATS EVEN MORE SAD IS THAT I NOTICE THAT I DIDNT HAVE MY PHONE UNTIL I HIBERNATE ONCE TO SEWARD. holy fucking shit . i walked back to gude gude with michael and my phone is gone. -__- I wasn't really mad or anything but it was a kind gift simon gave me and i feel like shit. ]; but hey , it means no parents annoying me and shit. no problem !

Then i went to seward and play some games. =)
I played with conroyyyyyyyyyyyy ! Hes so tough.
We won against chris and michaelwuu ; we were doing pretty good.
mostly conroy , some godly ass hitt (:
i didnt like it at first becuase the first thing chris said was
' he was only gonna use his left '. Yeah i wonder why -.-
I got serious & the game goeess byy.
But when we played the second game ,
yeah nigga conroy go eat shitttt ! . Hogging then missing.
Lost to zeehao & shenggg. I was doing fair , dont know bout conroy. LOL :]
Yooo i love intense games, they make me want to do better.
But conroy makes a good handball partner , i can depend on you !

- Then played with my sister against conroy&dennis.
I can say that , i did pretty decent. Not as hardcoreee. SHIT !
Susan probably must had the greatest game in her lifeee .
But i swear you could have done better. No worries. Thats why we learn
At least we dont really get as mad as each other.

i think i like handball more then i thought i did.

So simon went on cruise , i hope you have fun!
come back looking BUFFFFFFFFFFFF . !