depressing month.

not much people blog anymore. i do miss how i would know how everybody is doing and see how lifes treating them. now, everythings different of course. everyones on tumblr. hm, so .. i guess im stressing almost everyday and yes, i keep everything to myself. then people would get mad that i keep things to myself then makes it even fucking 100398023 x more stress that it already is. idk, i feel so complicated right know. i do know what i want now though but obviously its gonna hurt me. i wish someone can see what im going through, fuck.

unhappy

so manyy thoughts but cant be said publicLy. i feel at my weakest, no matter how many times i try to pick myself back up on my feet, a motherfucking earthquakes come & drags me down ..