Friggin Fall

i notice i dont blog as much as the other 2 month that has gone by. But whoever doesnt know, im living at my grannys. My damn home is under construction & i havent been home for about 2 weeks now. Haha im still not home yet, thats great =) i dont like home. its a hell hole and disgustang.

im sickkk. caught a cold and it lead to a headache. oh my fucking god! im sweating for no reason and i slept at 5 till 9 something. Im botu sleep again becuase this shit hurts, no lie. :(

drop it

ii was a weak child today. :[ life just fucking hit me and i just couldnt talk it anymore. So much bull is thrown at me all at once and i dont know how to handle it. And what? i cried bout four times today? That barely happens , i dont cry , i dont like to cry, & what i hate the most ? showing people my tears @ my weakesttt.

now; i could really care less bout what people say.
i go by my own rules & what i wanna do. fuck your shit.
- i sound like a little bitch , let me stopp.

dinner with everyone. i was more happier cuase i guess i dropped it. then pace but then took a stroll with beebee simon & helennnn & yeah carrying on, LOL . dumb chilly but simon lend me his dress shirt. i know he was freezing so i never friggin let go. =)

dot dot dot.

lifes a struggle.

i loveeeeeeeeeeee it

A few days agoooo ....

me and simon went to that sanginario in little italyyy :)
it was really nice becuase there wasnt much people and i didnt need to wait for anything. the only thing i wanted to do was to get some goldfish! so we went hunting for that. once we found that stand , he wasted 9 nine dollars. yeahhh sorrry babe for wasting yur $$ ! /: But we end up getting 2 goldfishessss! one name sluieee & of course the other one catfishhhh. x3 yeah it wasnt worth the money but spending time with him is all good :) then we walked more around and then told simon to play that shoooting water game stand thingyy. i told him to always get the seat number7 because i swear to god that number always wins. But right when simon was about to give the money some other family gave the money before us and took seat number seven. so simon sat at seat number eighttt. so thennn .... guess what .... NUMBER FUCKING SEVEN WONNN. OHH MANNNN. see im psychic! but its okayy! at least we trieddd & next time sit at seat nubmer 7 ! after that we rode the ferris wheel. um like BEST RIDE EVER? no body was on line && me and simon just sat there and they spin and spin. so nicee and calm :) then when we stopped at the time. MYFUCKINGGOSHHH, scary -_- such a little pussy of me

not cutting class till jan, thats a promise to myself.

and todayyyyy ....
i had a great time with simon cept the end. i was scared; never have been this scared. i didnt know what to think; it was way too soon for this to even for this to happen. But its no ones fault. We both didnt expect it, i just drop it and move on. Thats just life. Sometimes we just gotta drop it and make the hope for the better in the future. dont worry, my smile came back :)

Waddup.

I havent blog for days now. omfggg but im alive. no worries ! so its one full week of school and i just keep constantly changing my schedulee. I dont think im gonna switch my 7th period lunch anymore, simon eats with me anywayyys :) ; well only every other day kinda. Well today this nigga was about to make me burst. He coudnt even wait one minute of his life. I went through blocks& blocks tryna find him. I didnt have my phone with becuase i forgot to bring it out. Finally when i found him , i thought i was gonna be late back to class. But i actually had 20 minute to spare. So i spent it with simon of course. :) I made simon go inside my school. Its not really school properties becuase were outsidee. So we were just chillin and wasted alot of time! (: Then i had to head back inside and simon left off to sewardd.

O yeahhh, i changed my schedule&& end up having ballroom second period. Omfg i look like a loser, deadass. Everybody knew thier steps and shit already and im just a confused child. I messed up with all the partners i worked with. Damn they must think i suck -___- but i can say i like ballroom dancing so im looking forward to it.

Seward today but stephanie and liz came and chill with me today! Their having a lot of guy issues so they just wanted to step back. I love chilling with the both of them. Everything we do is fun and i really cant live without you guys(: i also won a game with stephanie today ! againt dennis. haha , goood shit

I was so mean to simon today. But you know i love you (: i dont mean it.

1st

First day of school. it was ehh. i got seven period lunch and thats really bullshit. 7th period lunch is when the freshman has it. But now that sophmores can go outside to eat, i callled simon to eat with me. Since he was done with schoool (: so i told him lunch starts at 1:40 & he tells me hes gonna be by my school around 1:50. Im out at 1:50 and this nigga is not thereee! Took him another 5 mins or so & i soon have to get back to schoool. He ran here and it was already late before i can even make it back in time since i wanna go eat with him. So i decided not to go to last period. Since i only have 8 classes. Yeah i know, its bad /: So i just went to seward with simon, being with him is all worth it. he makes me hoppy haha :D

seward then pace. its the usual now. everyone goes home earlier

4 day break , ima make it fun until school really starts !

New Month

September wasnt a great start. There was some family issue and some things that i just cant think straight. Mom was freaking out and yelling her guts out just becuase i wasnt sure where i left my phone. Yeah, like wtf? But now shes nicer but i still dont want to talk to her. She smacked my face pretty goddamn hard that my glasses fell off. Fat peice of shit. But whatever she calm now, dont even wanna look @ her.

Things changed now , accept it. Stop stressing and move on! I really feel upset when i see my friends all depressed yet i cant do anything bout it. i do care, i wanna know. Cuase everybody goes through stress and its hurts even more just keeping everything to yourself. You dont have to go through it alone. i dont like seeing people stress; kinda gets me thinking. What your reason?